The Writer’s Imagination

I have it on good authority from the artist – my aunt – that my baggy shorts were the closest thing I had to a skirt, the rubber bands on my wrist were my bracelets, and the socks were my asskicking boots. Yes, in my mind I was – and still am – She-Ra: Princess of Power…


That’s the kind of imagination you need as a writer and as a performer. And then you need to surround yourself with supportive people like my aunt, who will confirm to you that you’re absolutely bossing it.

Happy, Creative New Year, bitches!


Childhood haircut : at my mother’s tender hands an auburn oompa loompa… / Coiffure d’enfance : aux tendres mains de ma mère, un oompa loompa auburn…

Childhood haircut : at my mother’s tender hands an auburn oompa loompa…

Coiffure d’enfance : aux tendres mains de ma mère, un oompa loompa auburn…

– Tristan Coleshaw.

Me in the eisteddfod 2

Wasp in my husbands hair: the perfect excuse to smack him on the head / Une guêpe dans les cheveux de mon mari : l’excuse parfaite de lui frapper à la tête.

Wasp in my husbands hair: the perfect excuse to smack him on the head.

Une guêpe dans les cheveux de mon mari : l’excuse parfaite de lui frapper à la tête.

– Tristan Coleshaw.


My last breath, the Gods finally asking for the bill / Mon dernier souffle, enfin les dieux demande l’addition.

My last breath, the Gods finally asking for the bill.

Mon dernier souffle, enfin les dieux demande l’addition.

– Tristan Coleshaw.

If God meant me to sing, why send the rapist with tonsillitis / Si Dieu voulait que je chante, pourquoi m’a-t-il envoyé le violeur atteint d’une amygdalite?

If God meant me to sing, why send the rapist with tonsillitis?

Si Dieu voulait que je chante, pourquoi m’a-t-il envoyé le violeur atteint d’une amygdalite?

– Tristan Coleshaw.

Friday thoughts…

When straight, white men write confessionally it’s edgy, brave.

When straight, white women write confessionally it’s indulgent.

When non-white men and women, gay or straight write confessionally, it’s illuminating, eye-opening.

When gay men and women write confessionally it’s daring, obscene.


Listen to Frakknuckle on Soundcloud:

You can spend days looking at a blank page, and for a writer that is the worst type of torture…

… And then when something comes, anything, whether it’s about what you intended to write or not – when it comes and it feels true, or even just somewhat true to what you’re feeling, the days you’ve wasted dissolve like the point of a match. That’s the life of the writer.


When I’m Gone…

When I’m gone, a few things might remain. A few impressions on a few hearts of how I loved. Which is completely. Which is a vision beyond all faults, which is forgiveness beyond all the things that were wrong. Beyond all that I should have to forgive. This is how I loved. Without a putting myself first.

When I’m gone, a few will remember the story of how I gave myself to others. The story of how others took what was not theirs to claim. The story of how I knew no better but to give all of me. I forgive those that took. I break under the force of their desires as I broke in their arms. I forgive them all.

When I’m gone, I’ll leave a mess behind. Records scratched by passion and time. Books with page corners folded. I’ll leave the jeans speckled with woodland mud that I meant to clean. I’ll leave films on pause that I meant to finish and food I meant to marinate and cook with love for you. I’ll leave thoughts I meant to put down on paper and breath in my lungs intended for words of comfort, love and wisdom, such that I have.

When I’m gone my dreams will go with me. I’ll share them until I can no longer.

When I’m gone, the impression of all that love will make a stain on the earth beside me, it will nourish the soil as it nourished me, it will feed the worms that feast on my remains or fan the flames that dissolve me into eternity. Until then, it all is yours.

When I’m gone, I will be in esteemed company. Friends I have lost, dreams I have forgotten, hopes I have given away. They will be my family. Until we meet again. Such great souls have passed, each a part of our living whole, and I will be the next missing piece. Until we meet again.

We will meet again as we meet now, in this moment. Bon voyage. Bonne chance. Until then….

Top Albums of 2014 (and they’re all by amazing women)

  1. Palme – Ólöf Arnalds                                                                                                                                                                     palme-olof arnalds

The second fully English-language album from this Icelandic superstar, its luscious mixture of Reykjavik kaffihús style folk and Folk Rock arrangements creates one of the most intimate listens you’re going to find in contemporary music, just has her previous, exceptional albums have done. With a voice that evokes the ancient song traditions of her Viking past and also as confrontationally post-modern as early Björk, Arnalds is perhaps the world’s least known yet most captivating artists.

  1. Mini World – Indila                                                                                                                                                                        mini world

When you think that Indila was 30 years old before she became well-known, you wonder what the hell you were listening to for the last three decades. Mini World tells the story of modern France – one of lost glory, despair and retrospection, in the guise of impeccably crafted love songs that both lull and bang. Boasting heritage from Egypt, Camodia, India and Algeria, Indila fuses the many musical traditions of her lineage in a way that gives hope for a multi-cultural France in the 21st century. If you can think of any fusions of Pop and ‘World’ music to sell over 500,000 copies in the English-speaking world this year, let me know. When it comes to the face of ethnic diversity in mainstream music, France is still leading the way, and Indila is the queen.

  1. The Way I’m Livin’ – Lee Ann Womack                                                                                                                                     the way i'm livin'

When Lee Ann Womack releases an album you don’t always know what you’re going to get, but you know it’s going to be real. The Way I’m Livin’ is the album Womack always wanted to make, so it’s telling that so much of it deals with loss, being lost and losing your way. With this album though, you get the sense of an artist that has finally found herself. The arrangements are crisp, tender and in ‘Tomorrow Night In Baltimore’ quite simply kick-ass, but the theme throughout is the passionate, intensely authentic delivery of Lee Ann Womack’s vocals. Hailed by many as the best singer in Country music, lets hope that her new record deal with Sugar Hill will see her gain greater exposure outside of North America just as fellow label-mate Sara Jarosz has through the same outfit. If this album does one thing, it proves that Lee Ann Womack deserves it.

  1. Chaleur Humaine – Christine and The Queens                                                                                                                        chaleur humaine

No, not a group, just one visionary singer-songwriter with an imaginery back up band that acts like both the devil and the angel on her shoulders. With themes covering gender-reassignment, escaping a crumbling town and the warmth of the human spirit, this half-English, half-French offering is one of the most intellectually and spiritually rewarding listens for many, many years.

  1. American Middle Class – Angaleena Presley                                                                                                                            angaleena-presley-album-american-middle-class-2014-08-1000px

If you look for insight, humour and unforgettable melodies in your music purchases then Presley’s debut solo album has them all and knocks them out of the park. Channeling Loretta Lynn, George Strait and Rickie Lee Jones in equal measure, the songs here have textures, they have colours and they have soul. And if it’s a slice of human truth you’re after then be prepared to be upset, because the cutting realism in Presley’s set might give you more of those than you’re ready for.

  1. Platinum – Miranda Lambert                                                                                                                                                       MirandaLambertPlatinum

Whereas Revolution was Miranda Lambert’s torch song album, Platinum is the collection where this artist realises she’s got what she was looking for. You can tell this is an album by someone who has recently turned thirty, because gone are those angsty offerings like ‘Kerosene’ or ‘Only Prettier’, in favour of the re-assuredness of ‘All That’s Left (for you to do is leave)’ and the title track ‘Platinum’ (‘what doesn’t kill you only makes you blonder/and my heels and my hotels they just got taller/the thing about platinum irrefutably/ is it looks as good on records as it does on me.’) That pretty much says it all.